"You call me out upon the waters The great unknown, where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery In oceans deep, my faith will stand
And I will call upon Your name And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise My soul will rest in Your embrace For I am Yours, and You are mine
Your grace abounds in deepest waters Your sovereign hand will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me You've never failed, and You won't start now
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger In the presence of my Savior"
Oceans by Hillsong United
Oceans by Hillsong United
O my sweet girl I have been obsessed with this picture the last few days, I think for two reasons the first is you look so tiny next to the huge Ocean (what I wouldn't give to keep you this small) and two it reminds me of my favorite worship song right now by Hillsong which in turn reminds me of one of my favorite Bible stories.
Peter and the disciples were on a boat when a huge storm begins, the waves are crashing against the side of the boat and I could only imagine how afraid they were. All of a sudden Jesus is walking toward them but they all think he is a ghost and cry out in fear. Jesus says to them "take courage it is I, do not be afraid". Peter than says "Lord if it is you tell me to step out of the boat and come to you". Jesus does and Peter takes a step onto the water but starts to doubt and becomes afraid. He realizes that humans do not walk on water Peter was a fisherman, He knew logically he could not walk on water, so he begins to sink. Peter starts to yell "Lord Save Me"; Jesus reaches down, picks him up and says "you of little faith why did you doubt?" Once they get back to the boat the wind stops and all 12 of the disciples start to worship God "Truly you are the son of God. I love this story, I love that even though Peter I'm sure was embarrassed because he failed, he sunk, still worshipped God. He didn't try to dry himself first - soaking wet he worshipped. you know what else I love is that the other disciples didn't point out Peters failure - they not once said "Dude that was so embarrassing I cannot believe you did that" they worshipped right next to soaking wet Peter. Sweet girl you will fail sometimes, you will make mistakes in this life but we serve a God who lets us worship him "soaking wet", He came to save those who were sinking.
You are going to face a lot of unknowns in this life, some will be so small in the large scheme of things (but at the time will seem huge) others will be much bigger. I don't think God will call you too literally walk on water but sometimes it may feel like it, When we moved from Albuquerque there were plenty of unkowns and I was scared I would just down right hate it out here. But I put my faith in God knowing he had our future in His hands. So I stepped out of the boat out of what I knew. This move was my "walk on the water" sometimes I feel like I am sinking, I miss our family, friends and our church, the comfort of the boat. I feel overwhelmed with just everyday life; sometimes I doubt that moving was the best thing for our little family - than 6:00 rolls around and your daddy walks through the door and all that doubt is gone. Your whole face lights up with just pure Joy and in that moment I'm reminded that I would move anywhere if that meant I could see that look on your face everyday.
I feel like this might be an all over the place letter to you but to sum it up - don't be afraid of getting out of the comfort of the boat, but if you do lose sight and sink don't be ashamed to go to God soaking wet. Also, when others around you fail don't point it out don't make them feel more embarrassed or ashamed than they already do. I hope you show them love and compassion; it's life we all fall short, we all make mistakes - it's what we do after the mistake that makes us who we are.
Remember I love you Always,
Mama
